Pretty happy with myself. I’m confident enough to know that what is mine will always be mine. I do not chase anymore. I’m gonna continue to improve myself and love myself. I can’t wait to meet my husband.

Nothing to worry about. Everything is as it should be.

My habit brain wanted to take over when none of the man online wrote to me. It doesn’t have any meaning. They’re probably busy. Who knows. I just reminded myself that what is mine will always be mine.

Saw Matt today and he told me his now girlfriend just walked into his life. He said it’s the energy and I believe him. I had such great energy the past few days and things have been well. Keep my energy up coz I love it. I’m a high value woman and any high value men will see it! When they don’t see it, they’re not my people!

Danced with that man again! The feeling is exactly the same, the chemistry, the happiness and the butterflies. I just love it when he touches me. I thought that means I like him but outside of dancing, I don’t even think of him. He isn’t even my type. A girl told me it’s called dancing connection. It’s like when I dance with certain people, I feel like we’re the only people in the room. And that’s exactly how I feel when I dance with him. She suggested me to tell him thanks for a good dance, I really enjoyed it. So I did. I’m pretty happy with myself.

I’m a high value woman and deserve to be treated as one.

Thank you thyroid for being healthy. Thank you body for being healthy. Thank you breasts for being healthy. Thank you eyes for being clear. Thank you hair for being healthy.

I asked my subconscious mind to give me an answer and she did. If I had no fear at all, I’d get pregnant.

Thanks subconscious mind for always looking after me and giving me a healthy body.

I’m pretty proud of myself for not being worried. It’s a nice feeling.

I’m pretty happy with myself as I’ve decided not to worry this month and so far I stick to it. I keep reminding myself that after this month, I can worry all I want but this month, I’m not gonna.

Told two men that I’m looking for a life partner and they both stopped texting me. It’s good that they check themselves out so I don’t waste anymore time on them. Scott is the only one staying so far. I keep reminding myself to not to attach to the outcome. Enjoy the moment and get to know him. I don’t know if he’s the one but whatever it is, it’ll lead me to my man!

Last month of the year! I’m gonna make this month memorable. I’m not gonna worry about anything for a whole month. I’m gonna buy whatever I want because I want it and I can afford it.

Thank you body for being healthy. Thank you eyes for being clear. Thank you thyroid for being healthy. Thank you breasts for being healthy. Thank you hair for being healthy.

Talking to two men. Unmatched one man as he showed absolutely no effort in engaging a conversation. As time goes on, I have very low tolerance for men who make no effort whatsoever. I don’t know why they’re on dating apps if they don’t wanna talk. I guess same applies to women. However, I did my best and had absolutely no regrets unmatch him. Can’t even remember his name.

The two men I’m talking to, one makes effort and the other one makes only very little effort. I was a bit annoyed when he only answers questions but really, it’s got nothing to do with me, it’s all about him. He probably doesn’t know what he wants. I thought about promoting him but no. I’m a high quality woman and deserve a high quality man.

First day of period. I can feel my mood lifting. I don’t feel the best but I’m glad.

Started talking to Scott. So far I like him. Interesting man. I remind myself to collect data and with no attachment to any outcome. Just getting to know him.

I think maybe deep down, I don’t think I deserve love. Maybe that’s why when cats show affection to me, I get annoyed and push them away. I can easily get affection from cats. I can also easily get affection from children but I choose to reject them as I don’t wanna be stereotyped.

I don’t understand myself sometimes. Today a man showed disrespect to me and it really bothered me. I know it’s got nothing to do with me, all about him but I still felt how dare of him! What an ugly person yet he thinks he can ask me to drive down to watch a movie with him! After only two bloody conversations! What the fuck. What a fucking pig. Doesn’t show respect towards women at all. How pity of him. Ugly ugly fucking ugly. He can go fuck himself.

So glad that I vented it out as I’m sick of ugly stupid entitled men. What kind of upbringing for them to behave this way? Must be very unhappy with themselves.

Anyway, focus on myself. I want children and I like children. I just don’t like all of them. I don’t need to like all of them. I know I’ll be a good mum. I deserve a good man.

I remember the other day in the shop. A nice looking man walked in and immediately I avoided eye contact. I wanted to be invisible. I didn’t want to be seen. What if he’s married?

Well, so what if he’s married. I can still be kind and friendly.