Had a chat with Amanda and decided to talk to men without any agenda. My man is on the way.

I stop worrying and it doesn’t bring me peace. What brings me peace? Living the moment and be grateful for what I have. There’re many people who would love to have my life. Only when I’m happy within myself, can I attract a quality man.

Don’t feel like writing anything.

Lost my patience with Clyde. He’s so fucking needy! I can’t stand him. I hit him and shoved him couple times. He just couldn’t get the message of leaving me alone! And tonight he was acting out again. I think I’ll need some break after him.

Caught up with Silvia tonight and I couldn’t believe what she said about some men’s behaviours in the dance class! What arseholes! I also noticed that I got jealous when she said she got invited twice to the improver class. But at the same time, I know she’s better than me as she has danced in Italy before. Anyhow, I’ve decided to switch dance class as I’ve been getting so bored of my current one. The men there are creepy. I’m ready to make some changes.

I’m grateful for a beautiful day. I’m grateful for my beautiful body. I’m grateful for my health. I’m grateful a good night sleep. I’m grateful for my unit.

I want the feeling of certainty that the man will stay and show up for me.

I’m grateful for a beautiful day. I’m grateful for my health. I’m grateful for my luck. I’m grateful for my body. I’m grateful for myself.

I’m a very good person. I deserve all the best. I deserve a loving relationship. I deserve to have a man invest in me. I’m not giving up.

Love myself regardless. Look after myself.

I’m grateful for the reliable public transport. I’m grateful for my healthy body. I’m grateful for my clear eyesight. I’m grateful for my unit. I’m grateful for my bed.

I’m at the stage if I don’t give a fuck anymore. Any man who doesn’t make any effort, can go fuck himself. I’m not gonna be their coach and prompt them. We’re all adults and they should know what to do,

I’m so fucking done. I’m a high value woman and I deserve the best!

Had a good cry today and feel so much better afterwards. Talked to Wafaa and Amanda over zoom and they’re both lovely.

I’m grateful for the friendship. I’m grateful for my home. I’m grateful for the food. I’m grateful for beautiful people. I’m grateful for the internet.