I replied to Aaron saying I’d like to meet. I’m just gonna practice. I don’t care whatsoever as I’m not attracted to him anymore.

I love my life!

Had a lazy day home due to lockdown. I really like lockdown as I don’t need to make excuses staying home all day. Clyde is gone so the house is clean and quiet.

Clyde left. I’m happy for him. I love a clean house.

Said goodbye to a man as he doesn’t even live in Brisbane and he’s pretty sexually attracted to me. I felt a bit discouraged but I won’t give up. Listened to Dr. Joe Dispenza and I really like what he said. In order to be in love, I need to be love. I need to visualise my future and create the feeling of being in love so I don’t approach love from lacking but from whole.

I did a visualisation meditation on creating the feeling of love. My heart swelled. Also, I created the feeling of lump free! I feel so happy and at peace. If Dr. Joe Dispenza can do it, so can I!

Had a good day at work. I got super inpatient with a car in front of me as he was super slow. I think it’s because I don’t like myself being slow.

Daniel unmatched me. Saved me the job telling him we’re not a match without hurting him. Like Raeeka said, ask and you shall receive.

I want a high quality man whom I also find attractive. He exists. We just haven’t met yet!

Said goodbye to James and I’m feeling pretty good. I’m getting a lot better at dealing with men that I’m not interested in.

It’s like meeting a new friend and I enjoy meeting new people. I’d like to get to know him. He’s a male friend from meetup. It’s not a big deal. If we don’t like each other. I’m just go back to my already wonderful life. If we like each other, we will have more dates!

I so deserve to be treated nicely coz I’m an irresistible woman. I’ve worked on myself. I’m not the same person I was 7 years ago. I’m more confident and know what I want.

I had a nice dinner with Aaron but I didn’t feel the chemistry. I didn’t wanna touch him or kiss him and if he tried, I probably would jump.

He’s a very nice person though. He wants to settle. He’s a high quality man. He wants to see me again and I think I’ll see him again to see how it goes.

I really enjoy getting to know Aaron. I’ve told him quite a bit about myself as it felt right. I also accepted the dinner date as our first date. He organised the place and booked a table. I feel very special but also weird. I think I’m not used to being looked after.

I really like what I’ve known about him at this stage. In the back of my head, I have this little voice telling me what if I don’t find him attractive. But what if I do! I’m checking in with myself constantly. Staying at the moment and enjoying the butterflies.

Daniel dropped off. He didn’t make much effort towards the end despite me trying to save the conversation. James also started to fade away. He has said several times would like to meet but no action.

I remind myself that they two are not a match and it’s got nothing to do with me.

I’ve got asked out! Yes. So happy. He’s a very nice and interesting guy. I’m looking forward to seeing him.