First day of abundance meditation. The universe has infinite resources. It’s up to me how much I receive. Change my beliefs, change my reality. Hi create my own reality. I’m a powerful being.

Today I am practising soothe my inner child when she gets scared.

I am grateful for meeting this practice.

Today, I am capable of talking to a man without any attachment.

Change in this area allows me to feel calmer.

Today I am when feel scared, I gently talk to my inner child and say she has me here.

Today I am practising loving my child.

I am grateful for a long shower.

Today, I am perfect.

Change in this area allows me to feel loving toward myself.

Today I am practising when a man unmatch me, I don’t take it personally. They are just not for me.

I’m so glad that I got to be on the coaching call. All things just alighted for me. I’m feeling great.

Today I am practising loving my child unconditionally.

I am grateful for a easy work day.

Today, I am capable.

Change in this area allows me to feel highly of myself.

Today I am practising when I feel bad, I tell myself child that it’s ok. We can feel it and then let it go.

In my childhood, when my parents said I think too much, I felt very unheard. I felt that they don’t care about me at all. To cope, I shut down and never share anything with them.

In my childhood, I received the following messages about myself:

I’m hard to love. I don’t listen.

I was aware that my parents wished the following of me:

To be more like my sister. To listen and be a good daughter.

In my childhood, I wasn’t given privacy. My dad would open my locked drawers and make fun of me. It’s a violation! And he thought he was a caring father. Ha! Fuck him! I remember my disbelief when I saw my locked drawer being opened. The disrespect. He slapped me. Beat me. Humiliated me. And yet he thought of himself a perfect father! What the fuck! Yes. I didn’t go and see him when he was in prison but I wasn’t a preferred daughter anyway. I stop feeling guilty. I couldn’t say no so I rebelled. I was told to do the housework because I’m a girl. Yet he thought he doesn’t favour sons over daughters. What a fucking hypocrite! When only sons names in the deed. I fucking paid the mortgage. Because they’re males. Ha! He said he’s a very fair father! Bullshit. He had to say it out loud to convince himself! She had someone stalking me. She talked behind me. I never felt secure at home cuz I heard her talking shit about me.

My grandma said out loud that I’m fat and had a big arse and my mum didn’t stop her. She laughed at my crooked teeth. I felt very ugly!

When my parents got angry, they shouted. My mum threw money at me when I asked for it. Like I was worthless. They badmouth others in front of me. When I got angry, they ignored or punished me. I never taught how to regulate my emotions.

I felt a bit annoyed at the low quality men online. Why was I being annoyed? Because I deserve better. So why was I being annoyed? Because I want to be respected. Why was I being annoyed? Because I’ve worked hard on myself and I don’t wanna see those shitty men.

Why did I have the annoying feeling? Because I’m tired. I give myself grace and don’t go to dating sites for the day.

Tomorrow is another new day and I’m getting closer to my man. I can almost see his smile. Touch his face. Kiss him. Hug him. I want him so much.

Today I am practising having compassion to my inner child.

I am grateful for a hot shower.

Today, I am beautiful.

Change this area allows me to have compassion towards myself.

Today I am practising looking after myself.

Stu was with me while I climbed the ABC. He’s such a great friend. I’m so glad that I have him in my life.

Today I am practising being a loving parent to my inner child.

I am grateful for a beautiful day.

Today, I am amazing.

Change this area allows me to feel more confident.

Today I am practising feeling the love from my friends.