7/4/19 Day 33

Believe you’re worth it.

Ask and you shall receive.

A loving and fulfilling relationship with a wonderful man. We create a family together.

You’re doing great. I’m proud of you.

Love yourself very much.

Nash texted me finally. He’s been super busy and worked all weekend. I was so happy to receive his text and knew that he’s ok. I’m so glad I didn’t just shut him off as I nearly did. I wanted to unmatch him but I decided to give him benefit of doubt. I must admit that I deleted his number and texts. Luckily his number is still in my laptop.

I don’t know what to think now. I’m gonna take it one day at a time and get to know him more. Nothing is guaranteed. We haven’t met yet!

I’m grateful for catching up with Hannah. I’m grateful for a relaxing afternoon at the park. I’m grateful for Raeeka. I’m grateful for getting text from Nash. I’m grateful for my hard work.

6/4/19 Day 32

All the experiences are preparing you for the right man. He’s looking for you too.

You can get whatever you desire. Believe it and it’s yours.

You’re doing great.

Be proud.

I reached out to Nash and no reply from him. I don’t understand. It’s very out of character of him. But what do I know? I’ve only known him for a little bit over two weeks. I think it’s better to find out now than later. I have no resentment towards him though coz he’d been sweet. I did have a great time getting to know him.

I’m grateful for the universe. I’m grateful for my resilience. I’m grateful for Nash for being in my life despite being short. I’m grateful for Krys. I’m grateful for a wonderful day.

5/4/19 Day 31

I’m strong and loving.

I have my dark side and so does everyone. I still love myself.

I know my worth and I believe in myself.

A man shows what he wants by actions. Time will tell.

Nothing from Nash. Hmmm, interesting. I wonder what happened. As far as I know, I’ve shown up as my authentic self and I’m loving and compassionate. My doubts started to creep up but I told myself not to let my old habit brain take the lead. This is a great opportunity for me to learn and evolve as this kind of situation might happen in a relationship too. I wanna learn how to deal with it now so I’m more equipped when I’m in a relationship with my husband.

I’m grateful for my tools. I’m grateful for my inner wisdom. I’m grateful for my group. I’m grateful for finishing work on time. I’m grateful for being strong.

4/4/19 Day 30

I have the strong belief in my lovability.

I believe in myself.

I know what I can bring to the relationship.

I am a great woman.

Didn’t hear anything from Nash yesterday and today so far. I kinda knew it’d happen. I also knew it’s because of his work coz he’s been telling me his work is busy since the beginning. Especially now that he’s in WA. I’m calm and grounded. I know the universe loves me and if he’s mine, he’ll reach out. I’m calming doing my own thing.

I love the energy I’m feeling now. The strong belief. I really need to do this for myself and my children. My daily ritual really helps a lot.

Today I received another bottle of CBD oil and I’m really happy. I think it really helps in making the lymph node in my right armpit disappear. It’d been there for a very long time and painful especially before my period. It’s been gone for a while now. I can’t remember when but one day I just noticed it was not there anymore. Yay. Now I’m waiting for the lump in my right breast disappear too!

I’m grateful for my CBD oil. I’m grateful for my daily ritual. I’m grateful for my strong and healthy body. I’m grateful for my warm bed. I’m grateful for the universe.

3/4/19 Day 29

I feel calm and grounded.

I know I’ll always be alright.

He exists.

The universe loves me very much.

Everything I’m doing is preparing for my husband to arrive.

Be completed and my soulmate will find me.

I still enjoy texting Nash. He’s easy to talk to and I love getting to know him whilst sharing myself. I love how he always makes the effort to text even though when he’s very busy. I’ll take it day by day.

Still no new matches. I’m not worried. What will be will be. I just need to do my best.

I’m grateful for my beautiful skin. I’m grateful for my strong body. I’m grateful for my yummy food. I’m grateful for the universe. I’m grateful for my group.

2/4/19 Day 28

If he’s not the one, there’s another one waiting for you.

Practise your communication skills with him. He appreciates your understanding.

You’re getting ready for the right one to come along.

If Lisa can do it, so can you!

Believe in your lovability.

Nash and I don’t text as much since he started working in Perth. I think it’s because of him being very busy and the time difference. Anyway, he doesn’t owe me anything and I expect nothing from him. We’re not in a relationship so it’s all good. I’m using this opportunity to practise my communication skills and be compassionate.

I’m still swiping but so far no more matches.

I’m grateful for my beautiful smile. I’m grateful for the cooler weather. I’m grateful for a good night sleep. I’m grateful for my health. I’m grateful for Nash in my life.

1/4/19 Day 27

Be so sure of his existence. Be so sure of your worth. Be so sure of your lovability.

You’ll be fine. You’re lovable.

No other man to report but Nash. He’s been busy since arriving Perth. He doesn’t owe me anything. I enjoy getting to know him.

I’m still swiping but so far no new matches. It’s ok. Everyday there’s plenty of new quality men singing up. I’m going on a date soon.

I’m grateful for the technician for fixing my wiring. I’m grateful for my Thermomix. I’m grateful for fresh veggies. I’m grateful for my car. I’m grateful for Juliana.

31/3/19 Day 26

What is mine will always come back to me.

I was fine. I have been fine. I’m fine and I’ll be fine.

I love my life.

I’m a lovable woman.

Believe in my lovability.

Practise practise practise!

I can do this!

Still texting Nash daily. I love his consistency. It’s easy to text him. When I told Krys about Nash, her reaction was if he has held my interest for this long, that’s a really good sign! I laughed at the way she put it. She was right though. Normally when I start feeling the conversation get boring, I’d drop the man pretty quick. Simply put, if a man doesn’t spark joy, I drop him. I love an interesting man. I love a man can hold conversations. My insecurities started creeping in now I feel the spark with Nash, I need to constantly remind myself of my worth. And he’s not the only quality man alive. If he and I don’t work out, I’ll be fine. With this belief, I relax a lot more.

I’m grateful for my stable weight. I’m grateful for my yoga practice. I’m grateful for my beautiful friends for supporting me. I’m grateful for Nash for being a quality man. I’m grateful for myself for the ability to soothe myself.

30/3/19 Day 25

Enjoy the process of getting to know each other. You’ve never experienced it before. It’s fun!

Stay at present and grounded. Remember your super power. I’m calmness.

You’re super attractive.

Nash- still texting. I need to keep reminding myself to be present as I sometimes go to fantasy land! But he’s a quality man and I enjoy talking to a quality man.

Carry on swiping!

I’m grateful for finishing work on time. I’m grateful for a good catch up with Leigh. I’m grateful for living alone. I’m grateful for good podcasts. I’m grateful for being alive and healthy.

29/3/19 Day 24

The happiest man on earth would look into the mirror and see himself exactly as he is.

Stay at present. Be grateful for having the opportunity to getting to know someone.

Nash- texting daily is a wonderful feeling.

David- history. So boring that I unmatched him. I just didn’t have the energy for boring messages.

Carry on swiping!

I’m grateful for the universe who really loves me! I’m grateful for my legs for carrying me everywhere. I’m grateful for my arms for cleaning the apartment. I’m grateful for my client for giving me chocolate. I’m grateful for Raeeka for being blunt with me.