Be so sure of his existence. Be so sure of your worth. Be so sure of your lovability.

You’ll be fine. You’re lovable.

No other man to report but Nash. He’s been busy since arriving Perth. He doesn’t owe me anything. I enjoy getting to know him.

I’m still swiping but so far no new matches. It’s ok. Everyday there’s plenty of new quality men singing up. I’m going on a date soon.

I’m grateful for the technician for fixing my wiring. I’m grateful for my Thermomix. I’m grateful for fresh veggies. I’m grateful for my car. I’m grateful for Juliana.

What is mine will always come back to me.

I was fine. I have been fine. I’m fine and I’ll be fine.

I love my life.

I’m a lovable woman.

Believe in my lovability.

Practise practise practise!

I can do this!

Still texting Nash daily. I love his consistency. It’s easy to text him. When I told Krys about Nash, her reaction was if he has held my interest for this long, that’s a really good sign! I laughed at the way she put it. She was right though. Normally when I start feeling the conversation get boring, I’d drop the man pretty quick. Simply put, if a man doesn’t spark joy, I drop him. I love an interesting man. I love a man can hold conversations. My insecurities started creeping in now I feel the spark with Nash, I need to constantly remind myself of my worth. And he’s not the only quality man alive. If he and I don’t work out, I’ll be fine. With this belief, I relax a lot more.

I’m grateful for my stable weight. I’m grateful for my yoga practice. I’m grateful for my beautiful friends for supporting me. I’m grateful for Nash for being a quality man. I’m grateful for myself for the ability to soothe myself.

Enjoy the process of getting to know each other. You’ve never experienced it before. It’s fun!

Stay at present and grounded. Remember your super power. I’m calmness.

You’re super attractive.

Nash- still texting. I need to keep reminding myself to be present as I sometimes go to fantasy land! But he’s a quality man and I enjoy talking to a quality man.

Carry on swiping!

I’m grateful for finishing work on time. I’m grateful for a good catch up with Leigh. I’m grateful for living alone. I’m grateful for good podcasts. I’m grateful for being alive and healthy.

The happiest man on earth would look into the mirror and see himself exactly as he is.

Stay at present. Be grateful for having the opportunity to getting to know someone.

Nash- texting daily is a wonderful feeling.

David- history. So boring that I unmatched him. I just didn’t have the energy for boring messages.

Carry on swiping!

I’m grateful for the universe who really loves me! I’m grateful for my legs for carrying me everywhere. I’m grateful for my arms for cleaning the apartment. I’m grateful for my client for giving me chocolate. I’m grateful for Raeeka for being blunt with me.

Be steady and patient. Get to know him slowly.

Dating for growth. Enjoy the process of getting to know someone.

You’re amazing. Believe it. Be proud of yourself.

I’m happy that you check in with yourself daily.

Nash- I enjoy getting to know him!

New man!

David- so far it’s been boring.

I’m grateful for a beautiful day. I’m grateful for my smell. I’m grateful for a hot shower. I’m grateful for the coaching call. I’m grateful for my pain free body. I’m grateful for my perfect eyesight.

Trust your intuition. Your intuition is that he’s a good man.

But he’s so busy! Yes, he’s busy but he always makes time to text you. That shows consistency. Don’t you want a man who is consistent!?

I don’t know if he’s looking for a relationship. Well, this you’ll have to find out.

At the same time, keep swiping. Keep talking to other men. Go out and date.

Nash- a very busy man. But he always makes the time to text me. Although I’m in no rush but I sometimes wonder where is this go.

Have other men messaging here and there but none of them are consistent.

I’m grateful for a raining day. I’m grateful for fresh fruit and veggies. I’m grateful for the library. I’m grateful for my body. I’m grateful for my Thermomix.

100% responsibility. 100% of the time.

Believe in yourself. Be proud of your intelligent. Be proud of your mind.

Be yourself and love yourself.

Don’t take things personally.

Nash- we moved on to text. So far so good. I’ve collected some data. I like what I’ve collected.

New men!

David- I might as well say he’s history. He wants a serious relationship which is also what I want. However, he wants it right now while I wanna take my time getting to know a person before I jump into a relationship. He then said he’s not looking for casual flings! Casual flings! Who says about casual flings? I most definitely didn’t mention anything about it. I explained to him my intention but nothing from him since. So I guess it’s adiós.

John- just matched. I sent him the first message. See how it goes.

I’m grateful for my wish granted. I’m grateful for my ability as a nurse. I’m grateful for my body’s ability to recover. I’m grateful for a super yummy dinner. I’m grateful for myself.

You’re doing a great job.

You know who you are and your value. Believe in yourself.

Very brave thing to let go.

You know what you want and don’t put up with poor behaviours.

Love yourself and you always know what to do.

Nash- cancelled on me this morning. I was a bit disappointed but he did reschedule so that’s all good. He wanted to reschedule to tomorrow but I’m working late tomorrow so can be in low energy so I proposed for the weekend as he told me he’s having a busy week. But he said he’s flying to Perth for two weeks this Saturday morning for work and it’s a great opportunity for him. He said he really wanted to meet before he goes away but he doesn’t wanna be rushed. So I said we can wait. I asked if he’s open to the idea of talking over the phone and gave him my number. Now I wait. I’m a bit uneasy while waiting and I know it’s my gremlins talking trying to protect me. I’m not listening to my gremlins. What is mine will always be mine. I’m leading by example. I show kindness and compassion. I know what I can bring to a relationship.

Bill- I attempted to start a conversation but unfortunately, he still likes to be an interviewee. So I decided to say goodbye to him. I said my goodbye with kindness and integrity. He attacked me. I was a bit upset but then glad that I found out so early. From his attacking, I truly understand that he’s not my match and I’m lovingly let go.

So so far I’m only talking to Nash. I’m still swiping but not too much happening now. Be patient. Quality men are everywhere.

I’m grateful for a day off. I’m grateful for a good rest so my body can recover. I’m grateful for a good yoga practice. I’m grateful for my vaporiser. I’m grateful for a good customer service.

You know you can do it. You have the tools.

Have fun and get to know him. Collect data.

Be present. Be a good listener. Be compassionate.

You’re absolutely good enough.

Stay at present. We think about the future later.

Have fun have fun have fun!

Nash- I told him Jamie is my online name and he took it well with compassion. The more I feel he’s a catch, the more anxious I become. I think I’m worrying about if this is gonna work. I have absolutely no clues of course. I don’t know what’s gonna happen once we meet. We’ve been doing well online. Aaaaaaaah. I’m so nervous. Really need to stay grounded and centres. I can do it.

Other men- they all drift away as the conversation becomes very boring. I did my best to make it interesting but it takes two tango.

Carry on swiping!

Went scuba diving after 10 years. I was very very nervous before going into the water. Every time I become overly anxious, I feel sick and that was exactly how I felt before going into the water. I dry heaving. And my body started to feel very sleepy. I nearly wanted to give up. Luckily I was buddying up with the dive instructor. I very honestly told him that I’m very nervous. He said he’d jump in first and wait for me. In the water, he held my hands the whole time. It felt very reassuring so I calmed down pretty quickly and got to enjoy underwater. We saw five beautiful mantas, couple of giant turtles, nemos and lots of colourful fish. I was less anxious on the second dive but the current was very strong. The water kept coming into my mask. Overall, they were good dives. I’m completely exhausted after the dive.

I’m grateful for the strong body. I’m grateful for having a great dive instructor. I’m grateful for all the marines lives. I’m grateful for a yummy dinner. I’m grateful for a beautiful day.

You’re doing the right thing. Manage your pace.

He’s a great man. Be patient with him.

Enjoy your dive!

Nash- very sweet and responsive. He’s never done online dating before! I wanna give him a good impression. There’s many quality women online and I’m one of them.

Bill- I’m bored of him. I don’t think he knows how to communicate with others. I’ll let him go.

Steve- I’m not really interested in him. Observing.

I find it interesting that with some men, we connect without too much effort while with other men, no matter how much effort I put in, I’m still struggling.

With Nash, it’s been easy and effortless. The conversation flows. With Bill and Steve, I get bored.

I’m grateful for for a great day on Stradbroke island. I’m grateful for a good shower. I’m grateful for the sea water. I’m grateful for my lovely body. I’m grateful for myself.