I dreamt of Ben again. Argh, I was so annoyed. I don’t wanna dream of him. I’ve decided to let him go. It’s not healthy for me to dwell on him. It’s been more than two years since I heard from him last. I don’t wanna have any hope that he might come around.

This experience prompted me to delete Nash from bumble. I think I was also holding onto the hope that he might come around. What a silly mindset. The moment he said he’s too busy to date, I should have just moved on already.

I notice I have this horrible scarcity mindset like this man is my only man. When in fact, there’s many men who want to find a nice woman like me to settle down.

What is mine will always be mine!

New match today!

As usual, I sent the message. Now I do nothing and keep swiping. I know I’ll find my man soon!

I’m grateful for a good working day. I’m grateful for a good weather. I’m grateful for an early night in. I’m grateful for my perfect body. I’m grateful for myself.

Be kind to yourself. You’re unique and special.

There’s only one you in this world. Remember it.

Match with a new man. He currently is holidaying in Bali. Let’s see if he’ll reach out when he comes back.

I’m grateful for a clean apartment. I’m grateful for my able body. I’m grateful for a peaceful mind. I’m grateful for the clean water. I’m grateful for living in a safe country.

We’re all different and that’s what makes me so unique.

I have my own life path and experiences.

I’m exactly where I should be.

Had a great day at work. I still enjoy doing my job. On the dating department, not much happening and I wanna enjoy the calm before the storm. My first priority now is my health and my sleep.

I’m grateful for having a good night sleep. I’m grateful for having a good bowel movement. I’m grateful for my beautiful eyebrows. I’m grateful for the financial stability. I’m grateful for my beauty.

I’m exactly where I need to be.

I’m happy as I am.

I love myself.

Nothing happening in dating department. I’m taking a break now. Build my resilience.

I’m grateful for fresh fruit and veggies. I’m grateful for living in Brisbane. I’m grateful for my wifi. I’m grateful for my beautiful skin. I’m grateful for being myself.

Had a call with Raeeka this morning. I’m in a different place now. I’m so ready to invest in myself. I’m ready for my man. I’m committed to finding love.

I’ve made healthy dinner. I seek support from others. I’m being vulnerable.

I’m grateful for a good shower. I’m grateful for the money coming my way. I’m grateful for my comfy bed. I’m grateful for my beauty products. I’m grateful for myself.

Went hiking with Rachel and had a great time. We have a lot in common.

I’m grateful for my strong legs and heart. I’m grateful for a good day. I’m grateful for my reliable car. I’m grateful for my yummy dinner. I’m grateful for my perfect apartment.

Stayed home all day.

Made oil rice and brownie which taste very good.

Texted with new friend Rachel. We’re going hiking tomorrow.

I’m grateful for being home all day. I’m grateful for making a new friend. I’m grateful for my body’s healing power. I’m grateful for my able body. I’m grateful for my perfect eyesight.

You will feel 100% tomorrow. If fact, you’re already feeling better.

He’s around the corner. Stay calm and grounded. The vibration is important.

I’m proud of you.

Many matches but none reply so far. We’ll see.

I went out socialise despite the weather. I fed myself steak sandwich. I reached out to make friends. I showed interest in getting to know others. I observed and caught myself judging.

Find the peace within me and everything will fall into place.

Matched up with an Indian man. I normally don’t match up with Asian men as I’m not attracted to them. But then I remember what Raeeka said, I’m not gonna marry him. I’m just gonna get to know him. Dating is a muscle I need to exercise more.

I’m grateful for my hearing. I’m grateful for clean water. I’m grateful for my immune system. I’m grateful for my digest system. I’m grateful for myself.

Every little thing is gonna be alright!

Nothing to report on dating department. I went back to swiping again although I didn’t really want to. But it’s like my yoga practice. Sometimes I don’t feel like doing it but I do it anyway. I wanna find my husband so I need to be visible for him to see me!

I’m grateful for a good day. I’m grateful for my life in Australia. I’m grateful for my perfect health. I’m grateful for my guidance. I’m grateful for the universe.