Watched The Avengers with Hannah and her friend. A good night out.

I’m grateful for an easy working day. I’m grateful for my able body. I’m grateful for being independent. I’m grateful for my reliable car. I’m grateful for having friends.

I didn’t have the time or energy to write to the man online. Sometimes I wonder if he’s worth my time. But I really want to practise getting to know a man. Just being curious without attaching to the outcome. At the moment, I don’t care if we’re gonna meet or not. I’m just practising.

I’m grateful for being healthy. I’m grateful for my immune system. I’m grateful for my warm apartment. I’m grateful for having my own space. I’m grateful for finishing work on time.

I saw Oliver again! I know where to find him now. He’s as cute as before. I love his smile. We didn’t get to dance much but I’m happy to see him again. I also saw Ron again. He’s nice too.

A man was totally checking me out coz when we hugged, he said I had flu shot today. I was surprised and said how do you know. He said coz he saw the band aid on my arm. It’s such a small band aid and my hair was probably covering it most time. So he must have been checking me out otherwise he wouldn’t notice it. Although I wasn’t attracted to him, it’s nice to know I’m attractive.

I’m grateful for a good dancing night. I’m grateful for my moving body. I’m grateful for finishing work on time. I’m grateful for a roof over my head. I’m grateful for being attractive.

Oliver is very cute and I’d very much like to see him again. My habit brain took over again and told me men like me wouldn’t be interested in women like me. Coz I’m not attractive and beautiful enough. Who am I to say that! I’m perfectly attractive and beautiful enough coz the universe gave me this body and appearance to attract my husband. I brought all my features with me so we can recognise each other. I’m perfect!

I’m grateful for for myself! I’m grateful for my perfect body and beauty. I’m grateful for going to bed on time. I’m grateful for my yoga practice. I’m grateful for seeing Oliver again!

I now know from my core that he exists and we’re walking towards each other.

I’m happy today.

I somehow know I’ll meet him from doing activities because I’m more me when I’m doing things I enjoy.

I’m grateful for a good day. I’m grateful for the beautiful weather. I’m grateful for my health. I’m grateful for the love I witness. I’m grateful for myself.

I think of Ben again and miss him very much! Missed me so much that I cried. Argh! I don’t understand. In my mind, I had this dialogue between me and him that he’s coming back to me when he’s ready. I feel the connection still there. Is it only my wishful thinking? I have no way to find out. I just miss him very much.

Today I caught up with Rachel and really enjoyed it. I think I love myself more and more. And I’m more honest with myself.

I’m grateful for a relaxing day. I’m grateful for catching up with Rachel. I’m grateful for the book I’m reading. I’m grateful for missing Ben. I’m grateful for Ben being my husband.

I’m feeling down today. I tried being grateful and thinking about what works but I still feel down. I know I have a lot to be grateful but I still feel down. I guess tomorrow I will feel better.

I’m grateful for my strong body. I’m grateful for being healthy. I’m grateful for my working oven. I’m grateful for running water. I’m grateful for perfect eyesight.

I’m still thinking about Ben! Am I crazy! Why? I have the scarcity mindset that he’s the only quality man in Australia. He hasn’t contacted me for yonks.

The universe will work the magic and send me my man.

Some men message me here and there. It’s only normal as they don’t know me and haven’t invested in me. I’m taking it easy now.

I’m grateful for the perfect timing. I’m very loved. I’m grateful for my reliable car. I’m grateful for my body. I’m grateful for my hearing. I’m grateful for my apartment. I’m grateful for myself.

I’m so tired today as got called out around dinner time.

Not much happening in dating department as men stopped communicating. Carry on to other men.

I’m grateful for being home safe. I’m grateful for a nice dinner. I’m grateful for awesome bowel movement. I’m grateful for having a job. I’m grateful for running water.

The universe has my back.

He’s showing up soon.

He most definitely exists.

It only takes one person.

I truly love myself.

New match today. I sent the message so now I wait. I deleted rsvp as I don’t think men there are serious. They never send messages as they don’t wanna pay. Ah well. If they don’t wanna invest, they get nothing. Simple as that.

I’m grateful for not having to worry about money. I’m grateful for myself. I’m grateful for my yoga session. I’m grateful for my good mood. I’m grateful for having Debbie in my life.