You are enough just as you are. Stop overthinking. Dating for growth.

Had a good group coaching call today. I’m glad I decided to take a day off to look after myself. I’m the most important person in my life after all. I need to look after myself. Besides, no one is gonna die because I don’t go to work. Also, I wanna be in this coaching call! It’s more important than job.

Had a quick chat with Zac this evening. I’m happy with how I asked him questions. I’m also happy that I didn’t get too attached that he didn’t ask me questions. I just shared myself anyway. I’m dating for growth. However, before we said good night, he called me Babe. Argh. I must tell him not to as it’s making me uncomfortable.

I dreamt of Hugh Jackman last night. I believe it’s a good message from my SC as I always see Hugh and his wife as my ideal couple. And I remember my dream! SC is really listening to me. Thank you.

I’m going to ask the same question again about guiding me find my husband and dissolve the lump.

I’m grateful for a good coaching call. I’m grateful for my SC. I’m grateful for my ability to detach from the outcome. I’m grateful for my ability to read. I’m grateful for having food.

I’m so sore all over especially my jaws. Just taking it easy today.

Went have hot pot with Vivian and Penny and surprisingly, I had a good time. Penny is actually very nice. I think it’s also because I’m a lot more relaxed now. People can always surprise me in good ways.

Started chatting with a new man.

Zac- a head chef in fancy restaurant. Recently single. Not looking for anything serious. Normally I wouldn’t match with men says that in profile but somehow I swiped right on him. He did initiated the conversation which is good. When I responded with no follow up questions, he actually came up with a questions. We had a nice chat and he quickly asked if I have time to meet. I thought about tomorrow but then I thought, why the rush! I said Monday and he agreed.

I googled him and found his ex is very very different from me! My habit brain started to have a party. I shut her up and said there’s a reason they broke up. There’s a reason he swiped right on me and initiated the conversation. I’m who I am and there’s no point comparing myself to this woman I don’t know. And I’m dating for growth anyway.

I’m grateful for myself. I’m grateful for Vivian and Penny. I’m grateful for my body’s healing power. I’m grateful for the Internet. I’m grateful for a warm apartment.

Went to another dive and I was still nervous although less than last time. Just need more practice. I noticed all the symptoms of dry mouth and drowsy are caused by my motion sickness tablet! The tablet stop motion sickness true but it makes my diving experience less enjoyable. Need to find a new one to tackle my motion sickness without all the side effects.

After dive, I went to the famous Bam Bam bakery to have brunch. It is nice but I wouldn’t drive all the way just to eat there. I think I’m now less interested in spending money on eating but more interesting in socialising.

After I got home, I had a quick nap then went out again to dance. I notice if it’s something I really like, I’ll do it regardless. I was so tired after the dive but I still went dancing. I’m proud of myself!

I think up until now, I haven’t found any fun in dating and that’s why I couldn’t commit to it. Yoga, diving or dancing make me feel very good. I love the feeling after doing these activities. But dating, I sometimes felt shitty after a date. Maybe because I focused too much on whether this man is going to be my husband. I am going to start to enjoy the ride of getting to know someone. Not thinking about the outcome.

I ask my SC tonight to dissolve the lump and guide me find my husband.

I’m grateful for my strong body. I’m grateful for my reliable car. I’m grateful for my SC. I’m grateful for the dance tonight. I’m grateful for a good night sleep.

SC talked to me in my dream. I still have lots of fear about finding the man. Maybe fear of if I can handle it. Fear of change. In my dream, I was running away from someone and I think that someone is my husband. I think Jenny is also in my dream.

The sore on my buttock is gone. The lump still there. I think it’ll take a while but I believe SC can dissolve eventually.

Tonight I’m asking SC again to guide me find my husband and dissolve the lump.

I’m grateful for my SC. I’m grateful for the convenience of living in Brisbane. I’m grateful for the lovely weather. I’m grateful for my able body. I’m grateful for my healthy peace lily.

I’m grateful for finishing work on time. I’m grateful for my hearing. I’m grateful for the Internet. I’m grateful for myself. I’m grateful for the clean apartment.

I’m talking to my SC tonight to guide me find my husband and fix the sore on my left buttock and dissolve the lump on my right breast.

No fear. Be proud of yourself.

Be genuinely happy for your ladies. If they can do it, so can you!

The universe is watching over me and constantly giving me signs.

Every cloud has a silver lining.

None of the two men write back to me. Carry on to meet other men!

I’m grateful for a strong body. I’m grateful for the nice lady I met today. I’m grateful for having friends. I’m grateful for yummy dinner. I’m grateful for myself.

I can do it. I can deal with it. I’m self assured.

I’m grateful for my ability to stay calm. I’m grateful for having four limbs. I’m grateful for my comfy bed. I’m grateful for myself. I’m grateful for my lavender oil.

No fear!

I’m doing the right thing.

Good on me.

Proud of myself.

So I’ve talked to Raeeka this morning and decided to have another try for these two men.

Adam is keen.

Don’t know about Cameron.

What will be will be. I know I’ve done my best.

I’m grateful for my ability to juggle many things at work. I’m grateful for my able body. I’m grateful for yummy dinner. I’m grateful for myself. I’m grateful for the coaching call.

I want you to stop comparing yourself to others. Everyone has different journey and their own path. Focus on your own.

You felt the vibration today while chanting. That’s good. That’s how it works. Chant to yourself. Feed yourself good vibrations.

A new match. Newly singled. Broke up because working too much and he is still working too much. Not a match. Should work on himself before going into another relationship. My priority now is my health and sleep.

I’m grateful for a good sleep in. I’m grateful for my Thermomix. I’m grateful for the abundance. I’m grateful for myself. I’m grateful for spending time alone.

Went to my first kirtan meditation and I quite like it. I think it’ll become a regular thing.

The man online replied. Still very slow. I’m not sure if he’s interested. We’ll see.

I’m grateful for an easy work day. I’m grateful for my beautiful body. I’m grateful for living in Brisbane. I’m grateful for warm clothes. I’m grateful for my perfect eyesight.