I now know from my core that he exists and we’re walking towards each other.

I’m happy today.

I somehow know I’ll meet him from doing activities because I’m more me when I’m doing things I enjoy.

I’m grateful for a good day. I’m grateful for the beautiful weather. I’m grateful for my health. I’m grateful for the love I witness. I’m grateful for myself.

I think of Ben again and miss him very much! Missed me so much that I cried. Argh! I don’t understand. In my mind, I had this dialogue between me and him that he’s coming back to me when he’s ready. I feel the connection still there. Is it only my wishful thinking? I have no way to find out. I just miss him very much.

Today I caught up with Rachel and really enjoyed it. I think I love myself more and more. And I’m more honest with myself.

I’m grateful for a relaxing day. I’m grateful for catching up with Rachel. I’m grateful for the book I’m reading. I’m grateful for missing Ben. I’m grateful for Ben being my husband.

I’m feeling down today. I tried being grateful and thinking about what works but I still feel down. I know I have a lot to be grateful but I still feel down. I guess tomorrow I will feel better.

I’m grateful for my strong body. I’m grateful for being healthy. I’m grateful for my working oven. I’m grateful for running water. I’m grateful for perfect eyesight.

I’m still thinking about Ben! Am I crazy! Why? I have the scarcity mindset that he’s the only quality man in Australia. He hasn’t contacted me for yonks.

The universe will work the magic and send me my man.

Some men message me here and there. It’s only normal as they don’t know me and haven’t invested in me. I’m taking it easy now.

I’m grateful for the perfect timing. I’m very loved. I’m grateful for my reliable car. I’m grateful for my body. I’m grateful for my hearing. I’m grateful for my apartment. I’m grateful for myself.

I’m so tired today as got called out around dinner time.

Not much happening in dating department as men stopped communicating. Carry on to other men.

I’m grateful for being home safe. I’m grateful for a nice dinner. I’m grateful for awesome bowel movement. I’m grateful for having a job. I’m grateful for running water.

The universe has my back.

He’s showing up soon.

He most definitely exists.

It only takes one person.

I truly love myself.

New match today. I sent the message so now I wait. I deleted rsvp as I don’t think men there are serious. They never send messages as they don’t wanna pay. Ah well. If they don’t wanna invest, they get nothing. Simple as that.

I’m grateful for not having to worry about money. I’m grateful for myself. I’m grateful for my yoga session. I’m grateful for my good mood. I’m grateful for having Debbie in my life.

Had my favourite taro for dinner. Happiness.

I’m loved.

Life is beautiful.

Not much happening in dating department but I’m not worried. It’ll happen soon. I just know it!

I’m grateful for the super yummy dinner. I’m grateful for my husband. I’m grateful for my beautiful kids. I’m grateful for my health. I’m grateful for a good day.

What’s mine will always be mine.

I choose to be happy.

The two men I was chatting to aren’t serious about finding love. They both stopped responding which suits me just fine. I want a man who really wants a relationship and is high value. I only need one man. The rest of them are just for my practice.

I’m grateful for my warm clothes. I’m grateful for the nice people this evening when I ran out of petrol. I’m grateful for my body’s ability to rid of my blood. I’m grateful for a good night sleep. I’m grateful for myself.

I’m manifesting my children and my husband.

I’m worthy of a great relationship.

Caught up with a friend and she told me she’s pregnant. I had mix feelings. She’s always said she doesn’t wanna have children. She drinks and parties a lot. She didn’t think she’d get pregnant due to her health condition but she did. The father is her housemate whom she doesn’t love at all. They had sex for fun. Now they decided to stick together for the sake of their children.

My mixed feeling is that I want chicken but I don’t have a partner yet. I want my children to have a good father whom I love. I want my children to grow up in a loving environment. I’m jealous of her having a child. But at the same time, I don’t want what she has, a partner she doesn’t love and 13 years her junior. He came to Australia on a student visa but actually works here.

I wanna turn my jealousy around. I don’t wanna feel jealous as her current situation isn’t what I want. But who am I to say. The bright side is if she can get pregnant, I can too.

It is my birthright to have children with a loving husband!

I’m grateful for myself. I’m grateful for the universe. I’m grateful for my healthy body. I’m grateful for my children and husband. I’m grateful for my family.

Had my first ever salsa class and I really enjoyed it. I thought I’d feel very uncomfortable dancing with a stranger man but I didn’t feel any uncomfortable at all! I was there to learn to dance so men were not of my concern at all.

A new match. He replied a typical how are you. I’m gonna choose not to judge him and reply with a fun attitude. Let’s see what happens.

I’m grateful for my able body. I’m grateful for the salsa class. I’m grateful for a good day. I’m grateful for my apartment. I’m grateful for the warmth.