Had a good cry today while reading Rachel’s book. Another good cry while doing yoga. I feel much better now. My body has the ability to heal herself. I trust her. I trust myself.

I’m lucky I have a job and I’m healthy enough to go to work.

Arielle left for her forever home. Happy for her. I don’t know if I’m ready for another foster cat. I enjoy having my old life back. Nice and quiet.

I feel very alone. I hate it when the ceiling is leaking water as I don’t feel safe. I feel that I have no one to talk to. I constantly want to talk to someone. I feel I’m nagging a lot. I don’t like my job anymore. I hate the management. I hate it that I didn’t get that job with St. Vincent’s. I hate it that I can’t work in the ward in St. Vincent’s. I feel so behind. What exactly do I want for my life? I wanna study Ayurveda but I’m putting it off. I feel like I work do much for what? I hate online dating. I hate those boring men. I hate it when I’m not heard. I don’t know what I want. I want children and this is sure.

Spoke to QBCC this morning and learnt how to collect evidence. A learning curve.

I really wanna change job. Maybe I should start studying Ayurveda.

Had a day off today to relax but not a relaxing day at all. Found leakage from my kitchen ceiling and the water damaged the kitchen cupboard. Called Body Corp and the builder and neither of them wanted to do anything! Talked to Albert and he advised me to take legal action if needed. I feel much better now as I felt like a bad person when I wanted to be firm. Went dancing Toni and I really didn’t wanna associate with some men. I don’t like dancing with them as they’re rough. Dancing can really tell a person.

Watched Cirque du Soleil today and was very impressed. Not wonder it’s world class circus. Well worth the money.

I saw Jerome and Johanna today. I’m a bit jealous. Johanna is beautiful, no wonder Jerome likes her. Then another voice told me, I’ll find a man that is for me. And he’ll think I’m beautiful. But first, I need to think of myself as beautiful.

I left the group last night and felt good. I’ve never needed anyone to keep me accountable for exercising. I just do it.

Had my first interview for an CN role. I was very nervous but I believe I did my best to answer the questions with my best knowledge. I hope I get the job as this job is out of my comfort zone. I wanna stretch my comfort zone.

Wrote to the three men and got one reply. See what happens.

Can’t remember my dream last night. Think I’ve been too tired. Spend too much time on social media when I could’ve slept or read. It’s like an addiction. I’m gonna stop the addiction. When do I wanna care other people’s lives?

Applied another two jobs with Queensland Health. At this stage, I just wanna practise my interview skills. Tomorrow is St. Vince hospital. I really want the job as it’ll look good on my resume and a great experience. I know I’m capable of doing the job. Believe it!

Dreamt of Jerome last night and I don’t understand why. I liked him but not anymore. What is my higher self trying to communicate with me? If Jerome and I are meant to be together, I’m ready for it. The universe will find a way to connect us.