Today I am practising deep breathing.

I am grateful for my reliable car.

Today I am capable.

Change in this area allows me to feel secure.

Today I am practising when feeling anxious, I tell myself that the universe has the plan.

Today I am practising surrender.

I am grateful for the universe.

Today I am awesome.

Change in this area allows me to feel relaxed.

Today I am practising when feeling anxious, I let the universe guide me.

Today I am practising being open minded.

I am grateful for having a Chinese medicine treatment.

Today I am capable.

Change in this area allows me to feel the flow.

Today I am practising when feeling like judging others, I remind myself to be open minded.

Today I am practising control my breathing.

I am grateful for a great friend.

Today I am healthy.

Change in this area allows me to feel in control.

Today I am practising when feeling overwhelmed, I tell myself that everything is ok.

Today I am practising loving myself.

I am grateful for a lovely day.

Today I am great.

Change in this area allows me to feel loved.

Today I am practising when feeling inadequate, I remind myself that I am enough as I am.

The incident triggered my fear of abandonment. When I behave in an attacking way, people leave. They do not want to stay to resolve the issue, they simply leave. It’s painful to experience that I don’t deserve to stay and fight for. I was like a piece of junk, once malfunctioned, discarded. No room for fix. What I did was shutting down and functioning as if nothing has happened while the shame eating me alive.

How do I overcome this trauma? People leave not because of me not deserving. People leave because they don’t have the capacity to deal with difficult emotions. They themselves don’t have the capacity to deal their own emotions, let along others. I chose wrong men to have a relationship with.

Today I am practising loving my inner child.

I am grateful for a lovely day for myself.

Today I am amazing.

Change in this area allows me to feel the possibility is endless.

Today I am practising when feeling wronged or abandoned, I tell my inner child that she’ll always have me. I’ll never abandon her.

Today I am practising forgiving myself.

I am grateful for my body.

Today I am compassion.

Change in this area allows me to feel loved.

Today I am practising when feeling shame, I forgive myself.

I’m committed to meditate at least 5 minutes a day.

Today I am practising giving myself space.

I am grateful for my life.

Today I am in control.

Change in this area allows me to feel relaxed.

Today I am practising when feeling triggered, I step back and do nothing.

Today I am practising breathing.

I am grateful for my lungs.

Today I am kind.

Change in this area allows me to feel calm.

Today I am practising when feeling anxious, I breathe.

I find it very triggering when I’m being misunderstood or being accused of things I didn’t do. I’d immediately attack! No mercy whatsoever. I want to prove that I’m right or I simply shut down. I know it goes back to when I was growing up, I was misunderstood or falsely accused many times. I was very scared and angry. How I coped was by shutting down coz no one is going to believe me anyway. I was also forced to lie so I wouldn’t get punished. A lot of anger bubbling up.

Today I am practising parenting my inner child.

I am grateful for the opportunity to parent my inner child.

Today I am safe.

Change in this area allows me to feel heard.

Today I am practising when feeling triggered, I hug my inner child.