One day on the way home, I saw dad fighting fire. He was a volunteer firefighter. I stopped and chatted with him. Dad said I still had tears in my eyes.

I wasn’t good at math at all. I was in fact hopeless in math. I simply couldn’t understand what the teacher wanted. One day I came home with a zero on my math test, so dad took me to the teacher. The teacher then explained to me what she wanted. I was still pretty awful at math but no more zeros!

I was a cry baby at primary school although I don’t quite remember. Dad told me I cried all the time. I remember learning how to write. I remember never writing in correct strokes with the word 門，still not. I know of the correct strokes but somehow I prefer my own.

Every day, I walked to school together with my neighbours, two boys. One day, they decided to ditch me so I was forced to walk to school on my own. Although I walked to school everyday with them, I should have known that way by heart but every street looked foreign. I managed to walk to school and home on my own and I was so proud of myself.

My first memory is when I was in the kindergarten. The teacher would ask us to do flag raising. The teacher would go around and ask if we’ve done it before. I remember because I loved flag raising so much that I’d lie that I haven’t done it so I could do it again and again. I remember I usually did it with one of my classmates. Now come to think of it, the teacher must know I lie coz I didn’t lie just once but multiple times!

Now I’m feeling better that my lust came back. I wanna have sex with that man. He’s so hot. He reminds me so much of Ben!

Love it when I eat healthy. Today I tried soft crab sushi roll and it was so yum! I’m definitely gonna try again.

Started swiping again. I’ve decided to stick to my gun and only swipe right to men I find attractive and interesting. I wanna spend my energy on people who deserve my time.

I’m now focusing on how many boring questions I can collect and I’m gonna write a book!

I still have no desire writing to that man. I don’t wanna force myself to do things I have no desire to do. I owe him nothing!

I’m glad that I decided not to go to Kate’s event as I didn’t know anyone apart from Kate and I much prefer to stay in my apartment quietly.

I finally have my period and now my body started to release all the tension that had been building up over the past week. Horrible feeling. I can’t wait for my holidays where I do nothing but resting!

Don’t feel like writing.

Feeling a little bit better. Eating better.