Do what you feel right.

It’s right that you smelt him this morning.

He’s coming to you soon.

It’s good that I don’t expect texts anymore. I still feel a bit upset in the morning but much better as time went on. Up until now, every time I went through difficult path, I felt the worst in the morning the moment I woke up. This morning was the same. At least now I don’t live in fantasy land anymore. What belongs to me will always come to me. What doesn’t belong to me, I can’t force it.

This morning when I stepped into the living room, I smelt men’s deodorant! So weird. I believe it’s because he’s coming soon. I can already feel this presence. I’m a bit scared and afraid as I don’t know if I can handle it. But it’s just like scuba diving. I need practice. I now have tools and Raeeka and the group. I’ll be fine.

I’m grateful for my spiritual guide. I’m grateful for the universe. I’m grateful for finishing work on time. I’m grateful for being healthy. I’m grateful for a good night sleep.

So sad today. I still believe in the universe supporting me. I’m loved. I’ll meet my husband and we’ll have a loving family together. Don’t give up. Have confidence. What belongs to me will come back to me. He’s not going anywhere. He’ll find me. One day when I look back, I’ll be grateful for all the obstacles as they made me a stronger person.

Nash sadly said goodbye to me as he’s just way too busy. He doesn’t have time for himself let alone to date. I really did enjoy getting to know him. We said our goodbyes. I had a good cry. For a second, I thought about keeping him as a friend but really, what am I lying to myself. I wanted to keep him because I thought he’s the only man alive. There’s plenty of quality men out there and one of them is for me! I refuse to have the scarcity mindset. What belongs to me will always come to me. I’m a high quality woman and I attract my husband to me.

Shane- sadly a very shady man. I kindly let him know that we’re not a match and he felt the need to say something nasty before he went. I was very upset. But like Krys said, I dodged a bullet. I wouldn’t wanna be with a man like him.

I’m not giving up. I’m gonna keep going. I can already feel his presence.

I’m grateful for a good cry. I’m grateful for Krys and Juliana for supporting me. I’m grateful for a good yoga practice. I’m grateful for the lovely lady who told me I had a flat tyre. I’m grateful for my ability to decide being a nice person regardless of what happens.

I choose to have abundance mindset.

There’s plenty of quality relationship ready men out there and one of them belongs to me.

What belongs to me will be mine.

I’m afraid I’ll never find the man.

I know for a fact that you will have three children. Two of your own and one adoption. You also will have a fabulous husband who supports you. You were born to have children and a family of your own. If you weren’t meant to have them, you wouldn’t meet Raeeka in the first place. So have faith and believe it.

New man!

Timmy- the conversation has just started. Observing.

I don’t know where Nash is or whether he’s still alive. On bumble, it shows his location still in Perth but he told me he only meant to stay there for two weeks. Ahh, the feeling of unknown and uncertainty. Raeeka keeps telling me to be ok with it but I hate it. Anyway, he owes me nothing. If he decides to stop the communication, it’s got nothing to do with me. It only means there’s another man who suits me better waiting for me.

I’m grateful for the warm water running through me. I’m grateful for my arms for supporting me during my yoga practice. I’m grateful for Nash being sweet even though it might be short. I’m grateful for the opportunity to meeting quality men everywhere.

It means you still have the chance of marrying an Irish man!

How exciting is that.

Keep your belief and your faith.

You always get what you want.

Nothing from Nash for nearly a week. The longest so far. I kinda give up on him. A bit upset but since we haven’t met so it’s kinda ok. It only means I still have the chance to marrying a beautiful Irish man!!

I’m grateful for my strong mindset. I’m grateful for my strong body. I’m grateful for a good day. I’m grateful for my good eyesight. I’m grateful for my perfect skin.

This is the time I really believe in myself.

Believe that he exists.

Believe my worth.

I can do it. I’ll meet him.

I’m an irresistible woman.

Shane sent me a message. I replied. I don’t see the messages going anywhere at the moment but we’ll see.

New man!

Rob- a new match. I sent the first message now we’ll see.

I’m grateful for perfect health. I’m grateful for my strong mind. I’m grateful for the universe for bringing me my man. I’m grateful for having the best. I’m grateful for my luck.

I’m happy where I am.

There’s so many things make me happy.

I’m whole and completed.

I’m pretty awesome.

Nothing to update and it’s ok. This is life and I’m happy to have a clean apartment. Friday is my cleaning day and I love a clean apartment.

I’m grateful for my strong legs. I’m grateful for a lovely day. I’m grateful for my beautiful lungs. I’m grateful for Daniel Sloss. I’m grateful for myself.

I’m in perfect health.

I love me.

People like people who like themselves.

I’m pretty awesome.

Not much happening in love department today. I texted Nash just to check in. I hope he’s doing ok.

Shane reached out with a boring question. Observing.

Today I went to see a client to change her catheter. She said have you met George. I said who is George. She pointed at her catheter and said this is George. I asked why does she name her catheter George. She said ‘well, I don’t know anyone name George. George is men’s name and men are annoying.’ I just laughed. I love oldies! They’re funny.

I finally signed up Netflix and watched my first Netflix movie, isn’t it romantic? I love what the movie trying to say. Love myself! Yes!!!

I’m grateful for the message from the universe. I’m grateful for a good day. I’m grateful for my perfect health. I’m grateful for a good night sleep. I’m grateful for myself.

I’m so proud of you. You’re a different person now.

You can do it.

Write a new story now. Create your own story.

Be bold, be brave, be resilient.

I love you.

I’m now only talking to Nash now as other men show no interest at all.

I thought I’d finish work early but a bit miscalculated my time and ended up finishing late. A bit annoyed with myself but it doesn’t happen often so I’ll forgive myself. Was planning on going to Couchsurfing event but too tired and too late. It’s so hard to find the motive to go out during work days. All I want is to eat my dinner early and be in bed to read. I’m such a home body but I love it!

I’m grateful for living alone. I’m grateful for my strong body. I’m grateful for Thermomix. I’m grateful for Nash being in my life. I’m grateful for myself.

Watching Layla becoming a little bogan is so funny.

You’re doing great.

Go with the flow.

Be happy!

Nothing from Nash today. All good. Talked to Krys about Nash and I have the feeling that one day I’ll introduce Nash to her. Dare to dream. I don’t wanna be scared or small anymore. What if Nash and I don’t work out. I’ll just have to live the life I’m having now which is perfectly good. My man exists. If Nash isn’t the one, I’ll just have to fine him!

Shane- very quick falls into the boring category. Observing.

Juan- not a single word.

Blake- silence.

New man!

Eddie- so far boring. Observing.

I’m grateful for my beautifully calm mind. I’m grateful for my healthy body. I’m grateful for finishing work on time. I’m grateful for my lovely clients. I’m grateful for a good night sleep.

When you know, you know. Why wait.

I’m ready for him to come into my life. I’m scared but I’m ready for it.

Feel the fear but do it anyway.

I can feel his presence. Feel him holding my hands and embrace me.

I’m ready for you.

Nash texted me this morning and told me what he’s learnt so far. I’m so glad I have the tools and know how to respond. Instead of telling him what to do and assured him, I shared with him about my experiences.

New men!

Blake- don’t think he’s interested as he sent me a message and I replied with a question and nothing from him.

Juan- he’s keen to meet but couldn’t do it during the week. Last message is we’ll have to wait then. He said yes I think so. And that’s it. Radio quiet.

Shane- a Kiwi. Just arrived looking for jobs with more money. We only just started the conversation. So far so good. Observing.

I’m grateful for my strong body. I’m grateful for a beautiful day. I’m grateful for my dive instructor. I’m grateful for my beautiful and resilient mind. I’m grateful for a good shower.