15/1/20

There’s no point comparing myself to others as we have different experiences and backgrounds.

I’m lovable the way I am.

I deserve to be pursued and spoilt. Any man that is too lazy or doesn’t take initiative, doesn’t worth my time.

I have a lot to offer. I’m having Lily with a decent man!

13/1/20

Went to have massage, cupping and acupuncture this afternoon and felt so much better. I love love Chinese medicine and I’m very happy that I found a good one that is very close to where I live.

I’m feeling a bit down today as I’m only talking to one man now and not so many matches happening. Sometimes I wonder if I’m ever gonna find him. Does he exist? Why for some people, they’re so easy to be in a relationship. I think it’s their karma and I have my own. I think I decided to really love myself completely before I step into a relationship. As I knew myself before I came into this world that if I don’t love myself fully, I can easily lose myself in a relationship.

I feel like I’m a lot better than who I was. I know who I am and what I can bring into a relationship. I’m independent. I’m very supportive. I’m kind. I like to help. I’m very resilient. I don’t give up easily. I work on myself. I improve myself. I’m a catch!

12/1/20

Went dancing today and I love it so much. Dancing brings me so much joy! I never wanna stop dancing. And I can feel that I’ve improved a lot. I’m less self conscious. I’m more relaxed. I love myself so much. I have a great life. I’m so grateful!

Think of Ben again and compare myself to Katheryn. There’s really no point doing that and it doesn’t do me any good. My man is out there and he’s looking for me!

9/1/20

My darling

I’m just so happy to have you in my life. I knew when I met you that you’re going to be a great father and husband. I love our kids. I love our family. I love my life with you. Every time I think of you, my heart filled with love and happiness. I’m so happy that we found each other. We’re not perfect but we’re perfect for each other. I love your quirky and sense of humour. I love how you look at me, kiss me and cuddle me. Making love to you is my favourite. I love having you inside me. I love you for loving me.

8/1/20

Started watching Glee today and there’s lots of wisdoms in. I really really love and proud of myself. I honestly very look forward to seeing my man. He’s so close. I keep going keep going. I’ll get there one day.

6/1/20

Made oil rice today and really enjoyed it. I eat whatever I want. I just eat it in certain timeframe. I like to eat between 1200 and 1900. I feel my body is at its best when I eat in short window.

Had a phone call with Wafaa and it felt really good about myself. I love the feeling of lifting her up and of help. I think it’s my calling. Lifting others up.