Chatted with a man while bush walking. Really proud of myself!

Heard nothing from Ryan. Was disappointed with him but then I saw what Peter Crone said really resonates with me. If I were him, I’d be behaving in exactly the same way.

I don’t know him well but I guess he just doesn’t know better. I now have all the compassion for him. I really wish he finds what he’s looking for.

I don’t know why I have muscle spasms on my chest and back. Never happened before. It’s super painful. I don’t wanna take any painkillers so I went to have a massage today and felt much better. The pain is still there.

Maybe maybe heart is about to open? I don’t like the feeling. I think I’m sick as I also feel very sensitive all over my body. Just need some rest. My body has the power to heal everything.

I texted Ryan this morning. I got over my ego but at the same time, I don’t wanna chase him. I want him to come to me eventually. I don’t know if I like him romantically but I know I’m curious about him.

Get over my ego and just reach out. I’ve got nothing to lose.

Had high tea with Vivian and really enjoyed it. I loved dress up and look pretty.

Went to a house party this evening and had a few dances! Gosh! I love dancing so much. Dancing makes me so happy. I love having a community.

I’m grateful for my beautiful life!

Love my life so much.

Enjoy the ride.

Have the goal and enjoy the view along the way!

I had a dream last night. In my dream, I was riding a big bird and a voice asked me to go higher. But I reached the ceiling and couldn’t go higher. So I said to the voice, I can’t go higher because there’s a ceiling. The voice told me to close my eyes and use my imagination to go higher. So I closed my eyes and imaged that I break the ceiling and fly higher and I did!
I really like this dream as I think I’ve been doing lots of breakthroughs recently. I really step out of my comfort zone.

I think I really would like to know Ryan more but I really need to get rid of the results part as I subconsciously still hope he’s the one. But really, what do I know. I’ve only met him once! Get to know the man and have fun like Raeeka said.

Also, this Pat. I wonder what’s the deal with him. He seems interested but he doesn’t wanna process further. Might need to give him a soft ball soon.