You know you can do it. You have the tools.

Have fun and get to know him. Collect data.

Be present. Be a good listener. Be compassionate.

You’re absolutely good enough.

Stay at present. We think about the future later.

Have fun have fun have fun!

Nash- I told him Jamie is my online name and he took it well with compassion. The more I feel he’s a catch, the more anxious I become. I think I’m worrying about if this is gonna work. I have absolutely no clues of course. I don’t know what’s gonna happen once we meet. We’ve been doing well online. Aaaaaaaah. I’m so nervous. Really need to stay grounded and centres. I can do it.

Other men- they all drift away as the conversation becomes very boring. I did my best to make it interesting but it takes two tango.

Carry on swiping!

Went scuba diving after 10 years. I was very very nervous before going into the water. Every time I become overly anxious, I feel sick and that was exactly how I felt before going into the water. I dry heaving. And my body started to feel very sleepy. I nearly wanted to give up. Luckily I was buddying up with the dive instructor. I very honestly told him that I’m very nervous. He said he’d jump in first and wait for me. In the water, he held my hands the whole time. It felt very reassuring so I calmed down pretty quickly and got to enjoy underwater. We saw five beautiful mantas, couple of giant turtles, nemos and lots of colourful fish. I was less anxious on the second dive but the current was very strong. The water kept coming into my mask. Overall, they were good dives. I’m completely exhausted after the dive.

I’m grateful for the strong body. I’m grateful for having a great dive instructor. I’m grateful for all the marines lives. I’m grateful for a yummy dinner. I’m grateful for a beautiful day.

You’re doing the right thing. Manage your pace.

He’s a great man. Be patient with him.

Enjoy your dive!

Nash- very sweet and responsive. He’s never done online dating before! I wanna give him a good impression. There’s many quality women online and I’m one of them.

Bill- I’m bored of him. I don’t think he knows how to communicate with others. I’ll let him go.

Steve- I’m not really interested in him. Observing.

I find it interesting that with some men, we connect without too much effort while with other men, no matter how much effort I put in, I’m still struggling.

With Nash, it’s been easy and effortless. The conversation flows. With Bill and Steve, I get bored.

I’m grateful for for a great day on Stradbroke island. I’m grateful for a good shower. I’m grateful for the sea water. I’m grateful for my lovely body. I’m grateful for myself.

Be true to yourself. Be comfortable with yourself. You can do this. He likes you. Enjoy being liked.

Nash- he’s a really sweet man from the data I’ve gathered. He queued for an hour to get Lee Child’s signed copy for his uncle. He’s very honest. He’s very consistent.

Bill- a weirdo. I don’t know what he wants. Never asked questions. I have enough with men who have no idea what they want.

Steve- seems nice but a bit too chatty and uses too many emojis. His messages look very busy. However, he seems really keen on getting to know me. Observing.

Oh, Jordan has a girlfriend. Ah well.

I’m grateful for finishing work on time. I’m grateful for my ability to catch the keyword. I’m grateful for chatting with Nash. I’m grateful for my ability to clean the apartment. I’m grateful for my healthy body.

Check in with yourself. I know you’re excited that you met a quality man but don’t forget you haven’t met him yet.

Stay calm and grounded. Enjoy your life. Have your standards. Be proud.

You’re a wonderful woman and you know it!

Nash- still messaging. Look forward to receiving his messages. We’re in the process of getting to know each other. I’m glad our conversations have evolved out of usual day reports! I enjoy getting to know him more.

Bill- new man from yesterday. Very opinionated and intelligent. He likes debating and understanding human mind. Our conversation began on human’s free will. I don’t know where it’s going but I’ll see.

Steve- new man from today. Seems genuine. Asked me good questions. Observing.

I’m grateful for the green trees. I’m grateful for my fan. I’m grateful for my bed. I’m grateful for my supplements. I’m grateful for my beauty products.

Be brave to dream.

Stay at present. You haven’t met him yet.

Stay calm and grounded. Also be open.

Your time is here. Enjoy!

I’m still messaging two men.

Nash- really like messaging him as he seems very sweet and stable. I sent him a sweet message around lunchtime wishing him a beautiful day. I was a bit hesitant to send it but thought what the hell. If I were having a partner, I’d totally do it so I did. I’m glad I did as he likes it.

Shane- reached out with boring question. I tried to turn in into a more interesting one. Will see what his response is.

I’m grateful for having a stable job. I’m grateful for having fresh fruit and veggies. I’m grateful for having a lot of money. I’m grateful for my strong legs. I’m grateful for going to bed early.

Trust your intuition. Your intuition is always right.

I’m so happy for you. You found yourself a good man.

Don’t judge. Don’t go to fantasy land. Stay at present.

Believe in your lovability.

Kevin- history. Nothing from him today and I don’t think I’ll hear from him again. Funny that I actually never have feelings for him. I wish him all the best.

Nash- still messaging. He’s very consistent. I did a bit of googling on him and so far what he’s said is true.

No more men. I’m still swiping though. Hopefully I can get to match some more soon.

I’m grateful for the beautiful weather. I’m grateful for my yoga practice. I’m grateful for the clean water. I’m grateful for living in Brisbane. I’m grateful for my healthy gut.

Do what feels good.

Trust your intuition.

You deserve a man who treats you right.

I want a juicy steak!

Kevin- reaches out today asking about my day and my weekend. Duh, fucking boring. I lost my interest in him. The momentum is long gone from the moment he cancelled on me and did not reschedule. He reached out today mentioning nothing about meeting again. If he’s really interested, he’d have done the rescheduling. I very quickly dismissed him. He needs to up his fucking game if he wants to see me again.

Elric- history.

Jeff and Shane- silence.

Nash- super sweet. He wanted to see me this weekend but I’m booked this weekend. Hopefully we meet up during the week.

I need more new men! Carry on swiping.

I’m grateful for a great comedy night. I’m grateful for my perfect eyesight. I’m grateful for my perfect hearing. I’m grateful for the yummy lunch I made. I’m grateful for getting home safe.

Do what you feel right.

Believe in your worth. Don’t settle for crumbs. You want the juicy steak!

I soothe myself.

I love myself.

Kevin- cancelled on me at the last minute because his friend was upset and he wanted to cheer her up by having a swim. Looks like he really likes swimming hey! He didn’t mention anything about reschedule. I must admit I was upset when he cancelled on me. I decided to redirect my thought to what belongs to me isn’t going anywhere. If he priorities his friends over me, he isn’t what I want. I’m a high value woman and I deserve to be prioritised. I went for a run in the rain, shouted at crows and sang Bloody Sunday. I needed the bad energy out of my system and it worked. Now I feel so much better. I don’t care whether he comes back or not. If he doesn’t, goodbye. If he does, he needs to earn my trust. I keep reminding myself that I’m finding a great father for my children. It keeps me going.

Nash- he’s sweet. He reaches out daily. So far I’ve enjoyed chatting to him online. I sense he’s a slow person. I check in with myself and remind myself to be patient with him.

Shane- I sense he’s not really serious about dating. He reaches out daily but the questions are pretty boring. Observing.

Jeff- I think he’ll rule himself out pretty soon.

Elric- hasn’t reached out over the weekend.

What I’ve learnt so far is if a man is intentional about finding love, he’d reach out consistently and do his best to keep the conversation going and ask good questions. It’s actually pretty obvious. No need to guess. I only focus on men who reach out consistently and have a quality conversation.

I’m grateful for a good run. I’m grateful for an easy day at work. I’m grateful for my body always telling me what she needs. I’m grateful for the rain. I’m grateful for my hearing.

I really really like myself.

I’m a high quality woman and I know my worth.

I’m not afraid to say what I want and to set boundaries.

I’m finding a good husband for my babies.

I’m pretty sexy.

Kevin- he asked me for a swimming date. I immediately felt uncomfortable so I told him. To his credit, he took it well and agreed for alternative. I’ve never dated a French man but from my experience with French people, they probably don’t think it such a big deal to have a swim on second date. However, I’m not French and I wanna feel comfortable around him. I was a bit worried that he might just ghost me but then I told myself that what is mine isn’t going anywhere. Then I talked to my children that I promise I’m finding them a good papa. It really kept me going. Daily chanting and repeating my pledge really help.

Elric- I think he’s gone. Ah well. Don’t think he’s serious about finding anyone.

Jeff- a turtle type. Very slow. I don’t care.

New men!

Nash- we’ve exchanged couple of messages and he seems keen. He said good night to me and said he wants to keep talking to me tomorrow. That’s sweet. He also seems quality. Observing.

Shane- we’ve exchanged couple of messages. I think he’s sitting on the fence. It’s ok though as there’s plenty of men out there.

I really like my new dating story now. Plenty of quality men online! I just have to be patient and filter in the good ones. I love my new mindset.

I’m grateful for myself. I’m grateful for the quality men online. I’m grateful for an easy day. I’m grateful for my skin care products. I’m grateful for the cooler weather.

What do you think why you saw Ben on rego? I don’t know. Is he coming back? I feel funny to even entertain this idea! We haven’t talked in two years! I don’t know what that meant but I don’t care. I did like him very much but not anymore. I did miss him and our connection but I don’t know. I’ve let him go. I’m moving on.

Jeff- not interested in getting to know me. I think he’ll rule himself out or I’ll rule him out. I deserve a high quality man.

Kevin- still texting.

Elric- I’m getting bored of him.

Today, I saw Jordon again. The butterfly was there! I can’t resist the sexy Irish accent. I know I’m not the only one charmed by Irish accent. I don’t really know Jordon very well but he seems nice and cheerful. Funny thing is I don’t know if I’d swipe right on him. I still much prefer meeting people in real life as I like to feel the energy. Jordan has high energy. However, he looks very young though. Anyway, it’s nice to feel butterflies in my stomach.

I’m grateful for the thunder storms. I’m grateful for the rain. I’m grateful for my yummy dinner. I’m grateful for not worrying about money. I’m grateful for the butterflies in my stomach.