19/6/20

Started harmony again and there’re many new tracks. I did a new one for self love and found out it’s similar to metta meditation. I didn’t particularly like it as I find it hard to give warmth to someone who hurt me. They can get warmth from elsewhere but not from me.

Was talking to a man and very quickly found out he’s here to learn English. I immediately unmatched him. I do not want to date any bloody language learners! I hate them! I do not want to help them improve their English. I wanna find a life partner. Why are they on dating site? Well, they have every right on any bloody site.

Sometimes I feel myself being very ruthless when unmatch men. I did it very quick. I sometimes feel bad but I need to remind myself that my goal is clear, when they’re not a match, there’s really no point dwell on it. Just like Debbie and Matthew said, sometimes I need to be ruthless so I can find my life partner. I don’t know those men and they don’t know me. I owe them nothing. Men also unmatch me out of blue and I feel nothing. I just carry on with my life.

My life partner is also looking for me. We’ll recognise each other.