During meditation, I thought of The Three Monkeys. It’s one of my favourite places to go because of Ben. I had so many good memories there with him. Tears suddenly came when he entered my memory. I miss him so much it hurts. I think the reason I miss him so much is when I was with him, I felt seem, heard and accepted. I hope he’s well and happy.

Busy day at work. Came home and cleaned the house. I love a clean house.

Planned on going to St. Helena island but missed the ferry, so went to The Gunshop cafe instead. Yummy food. Afterward, I went for a bit of window shopping.

Later, went to dance class. I love dancing. An enjoyable day.

Worked today.

If it’s not a match, it’s got nothing to do with me. It simply isn’t a match.

Picked up William home. Very unfortunate that he has to come home. But he seems more settled here.

I’m grateful for my reliable car.

I’m a very good person.

I’m proud of myself.

What life wants from me?

It wants me to be happy. It wants me to not give up on finding love. It wants me to have a loving family.

I have resentment over my current situation. I’m know I’m very lucky that financially, I don’t have to worry about it, I just hope I can get the job I truly want. HITH. It’s my next desire step. Not the bloody under 30 dollars an hour GP practice. I’m an experienced nurse and I deserve to get paid well.

I’m grateful for having money.

I’m grateful for my reliable car.

I’m grateful for my health.

I’m grateful for myself.

I’m truly awesome!

Love dancing so much!