I don’t know why I have muscle spasms on my chest and back. Never happened before. It’s super painful. I don’t wanna take any painkillers so I went to have a massage today and felt much better. The pain is still there.

Maybe maybe heart is about to open? I don’t like the feeling. I think I’m sick as I also feel very sensitive all over my body. Just need some rest. My body has the power to heal everything.

I texted Ryan this morning. I got over my ego but at the same time, I don’t wanna chase him. I want him to come to me eventually. I don’t know if I like him romantically but I know I’m curious about him.

Get over my ego and just reach out. I’ve got nothing to lose.

Had high tea with Vivian and really enjoyed it. I loved dress up and look pretty.

Went to a house party this evening and had a few dances! Gosh! I love dancing so much. Dancing makes me so happy. I love having a community.

I’m grateful for my beautiful life!

Love my life so much.

Enjoy the ride.

Have the goal and enjoy the view along the way!

I had a dream last night. In my dream, I was riding a big bird and a voice asked me to go higher. But I reached the ceiling and couldn’t go higher. So I said to the voice, I can’t go higher because there’s a ceiling. The voice told me to close my eyes and use my imagination to go higher. So I closed my eyes and imaged that I break the ceiling and fly higher and I did!
I really like this dream as I think I’ve been doing lots of breakthroughs recently. I really step out of my comfort zone.

I think I really would like to know Ryan more but I really need to get rid of the results part as I subconsciously still hope he’s the one. But really, what do I know. I’ve only met him once! Get to know the man and have fun like Raeeka said.

Also, this Pat. I wonder what’s the deal with him. He seems interested but he doesn’t wanna process further. Might need to give him a soft ball soon.

What is mine will always come back to me.

Today is 5/7. Lunar calendar 15/5. Moonrise at 5.05pm. Full moon. The synchronicity is just amazing.

I had first date with Ryan. I’m really curious about him thought I’m not sure exactly what he is looking for. He’s a very interesting person and I enjoy listening to him. I’d very much like to see him again. I have the feeling that he’s very shy though he doesn’t appear that way.

On the way to the car park, we happened to witness moonrise at 5.05pm. He mentioned it’s full moon. So I checked lunar calendar and it’s indeed 15/5. Today is 5/7. So so interesting.

I remind myself that what is mine will always be mine. I told him I enjoyed spending time with him and would like to do it again and he said we can catch up another time. I’m looking forward to seeing him again.