28/3/19 Day 23

Be steady and patient. Get to know him slowly.

Dating for growth. Enjoy the process of getting to know someone.

You’re amazing. Believe it. Be proud of yourself.

I’m happy that you check in with yourself daily.

Nash- I enjoy getting to know him!

New man!

David- so far it’s been boring.

I’m grateful for a beautiful day. I’m grateful for my smell. I’m grateful for a hot shower. I’m grateful for the coaching call. I’m grateful for my pain free body. I’m grateful for my perfect eyesight.

27/3/19 Day 22

Trust your intuition. Your intuition is that he’s a good man.

But he’s so busy! Yes, he’s busy but he always makes time to text you. That shows consistency. Don’t you want a man who is consistent!?

I don’t know if he’s looking for a relationship. Well, this you’ll have to find out.

At the same time, keep swiping. Keep talking to other men. Go out and date.

Nash- a very busy man. But he always makes the time to text me. Although I’m in no rush but I sometimes wonder where is this go.

Have other men messaging here and there but none of them are consistent.

I’m grateful for a raining day. I’m grateful for fresh fruit and veggies. I’m grateful for the library. I’m grateful for my body. I’m grateful for my Thermomix.

26/3/19 Day 21

100% responsibility. 100% of the time.

Believe in yourself. Be proud of your intelligent. Be proud of your mind.

Be yourself and love yourself.

Don’t take things personally.

Nash- we moved on to text. So far so good. I’ve collected some data. I like what I’ve collected.

New men!

David- I might as well say he’s history. He wants a serious relationship which is also what I want. However, he wants it right now while I wanna take my time getting to know a person before I jump into a relationship. He then said he’s not looking for casual flings! Casual flings! Who says about casual flings? I most definitely didn’t mention anything about it. I explained to him my intention but nothing from him since. So I guess it’s adiós.

John- just matched. I sent him the first message. See how it goes.

I’m grateful for my wish granted. I’m grateful for my ability as a nurse. I’m grateful for my body’s ability to recover. I’m grateful for a super yummy dinner. I’m grateful for myself.

25/3/19 Day 20

You’re doing a great job.

You know who you are and your value. Believe in yourself.

Very brave thing to let go.

You know what you want and don’t put up with poor behaviours.

Love yourself and you always know what to do.

Nash- cancelled on me this morning. I was a bit disappointed but he did reschedule so that’s all good. He wanted to reschedule to tomorrow but I’m working late tomorrow so can be in low energy so I proposed for the weekend as he told me he’s having a busy week. But he said he’s flying to Perth for two weeks this Saturday morning for work and it’s a great opportunity for him. He said he really wanted to meet before he goes away but he doesn’t wanna be rushed. So I said we can wait. I asked if he’s open to the idea of talking over the phone and gave him my number. Now I wait. I’m a bit uneasy while waiting and I know it’s my gremlins talking trying to protect me. I’m not listening to my gremlins. What is mine will always be mine. I’m leading by example. I show kindness and compassion. I know what I can bring to a relationship.

Bill- I attempted to start a conversation but unfortunately, he still likes to be an interviewee. So I decided to say goodbye to him. I said my goodbye with kindness and integrity. He attacked me. I was a bit upset but then glad that I found out so early. From his attacking, I truly understand that he’s not my match and I’m lovingly let go.

So so far I’m only talking to Nash. I’m still swiping but not too much happening now. Be patient. Quality men are everywhere.

I’m grateful for a day off. I’m grateful for a good rest so my body can recover. I’m grateful for a good yoga practice. I’m grateful for my vaporiser. I’m grateful for a good customer service.

24/3/19 Day 19

You know you can do it. You have the tools.

Have fun and get to know him. Collect data.

Be present. Be a good listener. Be compassionate.

You’re absolutely good enough.

Stay at present. We think about the future later.

Have fun have fun have fun!

Nash- I told him Jamie is my online name and he took it well with compassion. The more I feel he’s a catch, the more anxious I become. I think I’m worrying about if this is gonna work. I have absolutely no clues of course. I don’t know what’s gonna happen once we meet. We’ve been doing well online. Aaaaaaaah. I’m so nervous. Really need to stay grounded and centres. I can do it.

Other men- they all drift away as the conversation becomes very boring. I did my best to make it interesting but it takes two tango.

Carry on swiping!

Went scuba diving after 10 years. I was very very nervous before going into the water. Every time I become overly anxious, I feel sick and that was exactly how I felt before going into the water. I dry heaving. And my body started to feel very sleepy. I nearly wanted to give up. Luckily I was buddying up with the dive instructor. I very honestly told him that I’m very nervous. He said he’d jump in first and wait for me. In the water, he held my hands the whole time. It felt very reassuring so I calmed down pretty quickly and got to enjoy underwater. We saw five beautiful mantas, couple of giant turtles, nemos and lots of colourful fish. I was less anxious on the second dive but the current was very strong. The water kept coming into my mask. Overall, they were good dives. I’m completely exhausted after the dive.

I’m grateful for the strong body. I’m grateful for having a great dive instructor. I’m grateful for all the marines lives. I’m grateful for a yummy dinner. I’m grateful for a beautiful day.

23/3/19 Day 18

You’re doing the right thing. Manage your pace.

He’s a great man. Be patient with him.

Enjoy your dive!

Nash- very sweet and responsive. He’s never done online dating before! I wanna give him a good impression. There’s many quality women online and I’m one of them.

Bill- I’m bored of him. I don’t think he knows how to communicate with others. I’ll let him go.

Steve- I’m not really interested in him. Observing.

I find it interesting that with some men, we connect without too much effort while with other men, no matter how much effort I put in, I’m still struggling.

With Nash, it’s been easy and effortless. The conversation flows. With Bill and Steve, I get bored.

I’m grateful for for a great day on Stradbroke island. I’m grateful for a good shower. I’m grateful for the sea water. I’m grateful for my lovely body. I’m grateful for myself.

22/3/19 Day 17

Be true to yourself. Be comfortable with yourself. You can do this. He likes you. Enjoy being liked.

Nash- he’s a really sweet man from the data I’ve gathered. He queued for an hour to get Lee Child’s signed copy for his uncle. He’s very honest. He’s very consistent.

Bill- a weirdo. I don’t know what he wants. Never asked questions. I have enough with men who have no idea what they want.

Steve- seems nice but a bit too chatty and uses too many emojis. His messages look very busy. However, he seems really keen on getting to know me. Observing.

Oh, Jordan has a girlfriend. Ah well.

I’m grateful for finishing work on time. I’m grateful for my ability to catch the keyword. I’m grateful for chatting with Nash. I’m grateful for my ability to clean the apartment. I’m grateful for my healthy body.

21/3/19 Day 16

Check in with yourself. I know you’re excited that you met a quality man but don’t forget you haven’t met him yet.

Stay calm and grounded. Enjoy your life. Have your standards. Be proud.

You’re a wonderful woman and you know it!

Nash- still messaging. Look forward to receiving his messages. We’re in the process of getting to know each other. I’m glad our conversations have evolved out of usual day reports! I enjoy getting to know him more.

Bill- new man from yesterday. Very opinionated and intelligent. He likes debating and understanding human mind. Our conversation began on human’s free will. I don’t know where it’s going but I’ll see.

Steve- new man from today. Seems genuine. Asked me good questions. Observing.

I’m grateful for the green trees. I’m grateful for my fan. I’m grateful for my bed. I’m grateful for my supplements. I’m grateful for my beauty products.

20/3/19 Day 15

Be brave to dream.

Stay at present. You haven’t met him yet.

Stay calm and grounded. Also be open.

Your time is here. Enjoy!

I’m still messaging two men.

Nash- really like messaging him as he seems very sweet and stable. I sent him a sweet message around lunchtime wishing him a beautiful day. I was a bit hesitant to send it but thought what the hell. If I were having a partner, I’d totally do it so I did. I’m glad I did as he likes it.

Shane- reached out with boring question. I tried to turn in into a more interesting one. Will see what his response is.

I’m grateful for having a stable job. I’m grateful for having fresh fruit and veggies. I’m grateful for having a lot of money. I’m grateful for my strong legs. I’m grateful for going to bed early.

19/3/19 Day 14

Trust your intuition. Your intuition is always right.

I’m so happy for you. You found yourself a good man.

Don’t judge. Don’t go to fantasy land. Stay at present.

Believe in your lovability.

Kevin- history. Nothing from him today and I don’t think I’ll hear from him again. Funny that I actually never have feelings for him. I wish him all the best.

Nash- still messaging. He’s very consistent. I did a bit of googling on him and so far what he’s said is true.

No more men. I’m still swiping though. Hopefully I can get to match some more soon.

I’m grateful for the beautiful weather. I’m grateful for my yoga practice. I’m grateful for the clean water. I’m grateful for living in Brisbane. I’m grateful for my healthy gut.