I’m just feeling a bit sad about how lonely I am. I did my best to go to the Meetup event and then I went home straight away because I didn’t know where everyone was and then no one told me where they were. I know I need to do something about it but I don’t know how cause I’m always doing things alone. I’m so used to it. I want to connect to people to people I like I want to have a life partner to have someone to come home to, to hug, to sleep and to kiss. When am I gonna find him?

I don’t think finding my life partner is gonna fix everything because I can feel lonely in the relationship. And what am I gonna do then. I need to take care of my inner child cuz she is lonely and that’s why I am lonely.

Why is my inner child lonely because I haven’t been paying attention to her. What does she want? She wants my love. She wants my attention.

I really don’t like to go to the pub. I’m more of a outdoor person I like to go hiking, go for walk in the daytime. Today I went to a pub and I didn’t like it cos I like to see people who are sober. I enjoy a deep meaningful conversation. I want to honour what I want.