Booked a tour to Lady Musgrave island and immediately felt the anxiety bubbling up. I know it’s because of the four hour boat ride.
I was thinking of doing a scuba diving but the previous dive was so awful. It triggered a panic attack which never happened before. I’ve always known that I’m an anxious diver as I couldn’t quite master my buoyancy.
In the end, I decided to give up the scuba diving and just do snorkelling. I didn’t have my dive certificate with me anyway.
I remember when I went to a diving trip with Debbie. I was really struggling the whole time but I pushed it through. Debbie said she really thought I would give up. It’s me. I always push it through. I don’t like giving up. I especially like to challenge myself and put myself in a stressful situation.
It’s as if when my life is too easy, I get bored. Sometimes I wonder, why couldn’t I just be in my comfort zone and be happy about it.
I just can’t. Part of me likes the feeling of expanding my comfort zone.
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