I think maybe deep down, I don’t think I deserve love. Maybe that’s why when cats show affection to me, I get annoyed and push them away. I can easily get affection from cats. I can also easily get affection from children but I choose to reject them as I don’t wanna be stereotyped.
I don’t understand myself sometimes. Today a man showed disrespect to me and it really bothered me. I know it’s got nothing to do with me, all about him but I still felt how dare of him! What an ugly person yet he thinks he can ask me to drive down to watch a movie with him! After only two bloody conversations! What the fuck. What a fucking pig. Doesn’t show respect towards women at all. How pity of him. Ugly ugly fucking ugly. He can go fuck himself.
So glad that I vented it out as I’m sick of ugly stupid entitled men. What kind of upbringing for them to behave this way? Must be very unhappy with themselves.
Anyway, focus on myself. I want children and I like children. I just don’t like all of them. I don’t need to like all of them. I know I’ll be a good mum. I deserve a good man.
I remember the other day in the shop. A nice looking man walked in and immediately I avoided eye contact. I wanted to be invisible. I didn’t want to be seen. What if he’s married?
Well, so what if he’s married. I can still be kind and friendly.
Journey to finding love within 