How do you be compassionate while expressing your needs?
Remember your worth. Don’t fall back to frustration. Create a win win situation.
Be calm and grounded. You can do it.
Be playful. Don’t think about the outcome.
So some men disappeared and some stay.
Oliver stays. But as before, he’s so fucking boring. Barely asks me questions, only answers. Works a lot so he doesn’t have time to travel. He works a lot because otherwise he feels bored. That makes sense as he’s a boring person. After all the interviewing, I decided to stop interviewing him. I’m on bumble to make friends and find love, not to practise my interviewing skills. Let’s see what happens now I stop initiating.
Scott. I started to think he’s a fraud. I don’t think he’s a life coach like he said. At least not from what I’ve experienced so far. I have the feeling that he’ll fade out.
Benny. A father of one. I normally don’t engage with single fathers as I want my own kids but he seems nice, I thought I’d give it a try. But then he stopped messaging. Ah well. Might as well.
Kevin. A French. So far so good. He seems interesting and does ask questions.
I started revisiting my lesson again as I needed it. It’s all about mindset. I’m a scared woman. I’m so comfortable being single so subconsciously, I actually don’t want a relationship. That’s why I’m pushing men away. I’ve been trying to resist the temptation to unmatch men when I get frustrated. So far I think I’m doing well. If it was me before, I’d have already unmatched Olive, Scott and Benny. I’m proud that I tried to get the conversation going. However, when the man behaves like a dead fish, no amount of effort is going work. And it’s not worth it anyway. Besides, I deserve to be treated as a high value woman. I have a lot to give. They don’t have to do much, just shows interest and engages in the conversation but they don’t.
Tomorrow I’ll decide if I’m letting them go.
I’m grateful for a relaxing day. I’m grateful for my dating course. I’m grateful for my efforts. I’m grateful for the men I’m talking to as they show me what a high quality man shouldn’t be. I’m grateful for my healthy body.
Journey to finding love within 